While I used to manage 2 blogs, I've decided to delete my
older blog and to stick to this current one. My first blog all started as some
silly piece of assignment and then as a way to practice on my language and to
talk (lament) about life. My second blog on the other hand served as
a platform for me put the things I've read up myself to good use and attempt to
explain things as accurately as possible. However, what I've experienced in
school as well as what I like to do both makes up important aspects of my life
and are both inter-related and dependent on each other, so why not merge
them?
This is no longer just
about how I see my life nor how I try to understand it. Its about me
experiencing and understanding my life while I live it through.
Still, there are
things from my previous blog which I would like to keep in this current blog,
such as the things I've said below. They weren't fond memories but they are
things I would not want to forget, for they are still important to me.
At this crucial point
of time the realisation of the futility of my attempts bestows upon me. A
stroke of luck?
What is pride in oneself if all I strove for could not be appreciated by my
reason to strive. Perhaps I am forever inferior to one of equal caliber equipped
simply with differing talents?
Reality has caught up.
Though I may not falter for now, my near future is clouded with
uncertainty.
11 November 2011
''Thats not going to
get any better, so break it off from there. That way, a new shoot will grow so
that new leaves will grow beautifully''-Honey and clover.
12 November 2011
In times of sorrow I
seek your support and yet, to no avail. A month of turmoil from the major
examination my lifetime have ended as quickly as it came. I am now thrown into
nothing more than a dull, vacant life, only to despair over your absence.
I spend every passing
minute peering over my phone in desperation for your messages, knowing very
well that in contrast, you spend your time lavishing every hour of playtime with
your friends.
Friends...Was I ever treated as a friend by you? Your absence pains me, second,
only to the reality that is dawning upon me. The reality of giving in to fate,
which I had worked against ever since the day you were part of my life.
18 November 2011
